You would think people would appreciate you for your capacity to do so many things so well. You would think humans would realize we desperately need our super smart, innovative, highly sensitive thinker-creators to protect, repair, and transform life on planet earth. You would think your kind-hearted creativity and your driven curiosity would be respected, honored, and nourished by humans who realized the future of the planet depended on it.
To tell you the truth, I am flummoxed by this. Flummoxed.
Oh, I understand how folks who are hurt, insecure, angry, scared, or traumatized, might not be able to get beyond their own fears, to see you, much less appreciate you. I do understand that. I do not like it. But I get why it happens. I see how it might convince you to hide your true nature, especially if these people also reject, bully, humiliate, or abuse you out of their fears or ignorance. Especially if these people happen to be your parents.
It is also possible you have been told numerous times to slow down, explain more thoroughly, describe the steps you took to get to that answer, because many people can not keep up with you. But steps might be impossible for your nonlinear creative mind. There are no steps. Just leaps. And so you blame yourself for your seemingly inadequate communication skills or your impatience or their jealousy. And you hide.
The hiding can start early. Even when you are a little tyke, you may find the other kids don’t appreciate your passions for insects or your knowledge of the constellations. They may bully you because of your enthusiasm for libraries and classical music or for your conversations with trees. You may have also experienced conflict at home. On the one hand, you may have been over-praised for your achievements, which felt like pressure to always perform perfectly. On the other hand, you may have been told not to get too full of yourself or not to make the other kids feel bad. And then, my apologies, there is “protecting, repairing, and transforming life on planet earth.” Um. Well. I know. Too much darned pressure. Sorry. I would have left that part out but, you know. I can’t. Don’t get mad at me. Just ignore it for now, if you must.
So, if you were told you were so lucky to be so smart, well, you might not feel so lucky.
Even with all of the above, I imagine you are still grateful for your rainforest mind. Am I right? You are grateful because you have the ability to create, imagine, know, and feel in powerfully deep and intricate ways. You can tune into your intuition and expand your notion of reality and feel nourished by a spiritual support network. Even though you may grapple with deep grief, anxiety, and despair, you also find sweetness, love, and even joy in simple things.
But you hide your light. Even from yourself.
What, then, can you do?
For one thing,
keep reading my blog and books keep working to understand what it means to have a rainforest mind and remember that everyone you know and do not know benefits from your self-awareness, whether they are conscious or oblivious. Knowing this information does not make you arrogant or unjust. It makes you authentic, aligned, congruent, even if it is only to yourself.
Look for smart, sensitive, adept practitioners who will give you their full in-depth skillfulness for therapy, bodywork, energy work, acupuncture, nutrition, movement/dance, spiritual nourishment, arts, intellectual pursuits, and so on. Look for at least one non-practitioner (friend? partner? cousin? neighbor? puppy?) who loves your light and encourages you to glow even brighter.
And finally, find out what brings sweetness, meaning, and love into your life. It could be simple. It could be grand. For me, it may sound cheesy, but I swear when I am writing these blog posts (and working on my next book!), I am in my happy place. Sure, it also helps to have my acupuncturist on call and to have enough estrogen in my system. But I receive sweetness, meaning, and love, right here.
With you, I glow even brighter.
To my bloggEEs: I hope that by the time you see this, all of the kinks on this new version of my blog will be resolved. Thank you so much for your patience. And let me know if you run into other bugs.
Do you hide your intelligence and talents? Is it hard for you to admit, even to yourself, that you have particular advanced abilities and sensitivities? What helps you step into your true nature? Thank you, as always, for being here. Much love and appreciation.
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